Sunday, August 21, 2016
Place
about what I left behind
my life begs me to cross
the ocean in my mind
I've been here for years
the mirror of you
I've seen before
My heart hurts
I pretend to be everything
like I'm alright
These miles
beg me to cross
the stars stare
through my heart
Time won't let me lose
our place in time
It's never too long
I have spent too much time
our lives
begging us to cross
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Yesterday
I see her when I'm sleeping
I see her when I'm dreaming
yesterday seems so far away
I see butterflies breathe
they are all around
like God sent them down
I can't stop the thoughts
about the ending
that brought me down
Her words ring in my head
like the kisses
in the words she said
the 3 stars side by side
like when she lay beneath me
the universe above my ceiling
I don't want to love her now
I don't want to love
I just love her somehow
I write the things
I've been feeling
did she tear out the page
Would she come and save me
like her eyes did
when I was being slayed
I read the sky in the evening
while my universe spins around
butterflies flying with no sound
I don't want to love her now
I don't want to love
I just love her somehow
All these feelings sacrificed
for children far away
living frame to frame
Haunted by the life
once within you
still with us now
yesterday still with me now
in my dreams
I still love you somehow
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
Now
Monday, June 8, 2015
Time itself
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Reach
of yesterday
The letter
then I knew
things would never be
the same
in all the love
It gave me light in my darkness
Monday, April 14, 2014
I'm near the circle
where it ends
I catch my breath
to breathe my mind clear
I cant take your hands
never again I fear
I'm never near the surface
always at both ends
I want to reach you
to feel yesterday over
I didn't care
about ever after
until you were here
I hear the silence
the ocean in the night
the waves coming closer
like every choice I made
I choose to wait
if you would understand
while I mourn the fragile thing
I want you to know
Monday, December 23, 2013
never be the same
It was good for you
Now nothing either of us can say or do
Can change the way you felt that night
Sometimes love just slips out of sight
Just one thing before you go
Just one thing that you've got to know
No one will ever touch me that way
The way that you did that very first day
And I'll Never be the same without you here
I'll live alone
Hide myself behind my tears
No I'll
Never be the same without your love
I'll live alone
Try so hard to rise above
The years go by
There's always someone new
To try and help me forget about you
Time and again it does me no good
Love never feels the way that it should
I loved you then
I guess I'll love you forever
And even though I know
we could never stay together
I think about how it could've been
If we could just start all over again
I'll Never be the same without you here
I'll live alone
Hide myself behind my tears
I'llNever be the same without your love
I'll live alone
Try so hard to rise above
It was good for me
It was good for you
Now nothing either of us can say or do
Can change the way you felt that day
Sometimes love just slips away
Just one thing before you go
Just one thing that you've got to know
No one will ever touch me that way
The way that you did that very first day
Christopher Cross
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
one by one
like all these years
its still the same
It must have been
a long year
with lots to do
cause I missed you
its nothing new
so dont say
theres no way
I saw your eyes
could you stay
we could talk
you could say
you were my friend
its been a whole year
its still the same in the end
all i had
so close
so closely near
now its your voice
I fear to hear
I fear sleeping
when I'll be dreaming
replaying the years
by your side
like butterflies
they wont go away
I dont want to wake up
If all I have left is
missing you
Thursday, October 24, 2013
In everything I'm with you
in the dreams
inside the light
in every sound
when the music plays
I'm with you
In the love
I send to you
in the sunlight
around the butterflies
I send to fly
by your side
I am with you
In the world
in the sunset
into the night
inside the stars
that take to flight
I'm there with you
In the tears I've dried
In the ocean wide
beside the butterflies
at your side
I am with you
In the chance
in the wind passing by
inside the bitter night
when you feel the ocean tide
in the butterflies by your side
I am there with you
In the birds that fly
In these tears I hide
in the life from the tree
in every word
you ever said to me
when you swim
in the ocean blue
I am there with you
Thursday, April 25, 2013
reveal
all this feeling
the hope
I'm not revealing
All these stars
dancing with eachother
like me always by your side
no disguise
If you could see this face
where nothing can hide
all this feeling all the hope
no revealing
always by your side
I choke all the while
As I dance inside my pride
in the ocean where I can hide
where else in the world
when I'm lost on the tide
so much hope
no revealing
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Cant sleep
where I could hide
and I cant lie
I was drowning in my soul
my light was paralyzed
I think back to you
where I used to hide
where you flew into me
like a butterfly
I would be lying
if I said I dont think of you
I would lie again
if I said I never weep
I dont dream of you
when I sleep
I hear you in my guitar
I feel you in my heart
and when my life is cold
on the days I dont understand
when I'm drowning in my soul
I hold you in my song
like I hold your memory
like the writing in the sand
I was never one of many
I want to find a way
to tell you these things
I hear your heart
when I lie here
I'm holding your hand
I want to run your way
to tell you I cant sleep
I would sing for you
its feels like yesterday
I saw you standing again
in the middle of my pain
The butterflies died by me
like words you said
I smell you still
like the flowers in my head
If I could say everything
it would come out wrong
I would close my eyes
and sing for you
and you know this
It doesnt feel so long ago
I dont like to say yesterday
I close my eyes and need your love
its been so long and I dont belong
If I could say everything
it would come out wrong
I would close my eyes
and sing for you
and you know this
if I could sing for you
I would
and you know this
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
this year
then I'll be dreaming
and wake up I fear
you dont remember
me near
Its been a year
since Ive heard your name
still I say it everyday
so its still the same
You should have
been my friend
until the end
its must have been
my fears
You should have taken me
from this hard place
and it feels the same
I just say your name
I forgave you
you said I hate you
wish I could have been
a better man
I wish you could have
tried to understand
theres so many days
when I think of the place
and the hearts that opened up
at the start of our race
we tried to win
I havent dreamed
of you this year
its the lie I paint
cause I cant see through
these dried tears
that fell
this year
Friday, March 22, 2013
yesterday
true love
was in me
and in you
for years we knew
deep inside
there was me
there with you
we could see in our eyes
what we always knew
me and you
you and me
For awhile
we couldnt hide
what we had
we knew
the love was true
after all the time
we were right
we loved eachother
with all
we shared
though we were scared
the days changed
in ways we never knew
The darkness came in
and the trees they cried
and the butterflies
had to hide
now I dont see you
but like for so long
you are with me
like you have been
all along
and yesterday
is all we have
Thursday, January 17, 2013
closed eyes
my dearest friend
I've been thinking of you
thinking of the end
I'll never forget your face
never forget your name
I'll never forget that place
where I loved you
It will take some time
A whole lot of time
for me to feel right
I still see your face
when I close my eyes
Thursday, November 8, 2012
words are true
I smile when your near
you should know by now
you take away my fear
you might think
its crazy
every word I'm saying
but their true
You're the why
to everything I see
and everywhere I go
you are with me
you might think
its crazy
every word I'm saying
but their true
You know I
could never let you cry
you should know by now
I'll always be here
you might think
its crazy
every word I'm saying
but their true
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
whom
for some time
maybe you dont know
you are on my mind
I spend my days
thinking of your face
and dont you know
its taken me all this time
for my love to grow
I promised so long ago
not just words
I promised to be the one
who will go an extra mile
for you
do you know
I hang on your every word
cause you are better
than you could ever know
and you dont know
how it feels to hold you close
I know you have some crimes
I can forgive these in time
if you will cross those lines
if you will come to my side
its not easy giving me your heart
I'm no enemy
I am everything good
you could ever see
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
I dont ever want to know
things you did to me
its the things you do
and the things you dont
that kills this trust
slowly killing us
You struggle with these people
that dont mean a thing
a waste of you
a waste of being
as I drown in my loyalty
you are safe and free
in me
I cant believe in you
as you cover me in words
saying things you dont do
there is nowhere I can hide
so do what you say
or move your lips with another lie
why
I dont wanna ever know what its like
to break the heart of the one I love
I dont wanna ever know what its like
to be under or above
the one I love
everytime you let me down
you taste my tears
you dont hear my cry
as you disregard the sound
I speak so much
when will you hear
as you drown me in my tears
and choke me with these fears
I'm screaming at you without speaking
to stop before my finished line
before I cant stop your weak thing
Its only peace and your truth
I'm seeking
I dont wanna ever know what its like
to break the heart of the one I love
I dont wanna ever know what its like
to be under or above
the one I love
I dont wanna ever know what its like
I dont wanna break the heart of the one I love
the one I love
is you
Friday, June 22, 2012
when the friends were you and me
this cloud for some time
I've felt torn asunder
all this time
i didnt know
I thought I knew myself
until I thought of your face
its taken me so long
to let it go
you never knew
cause I could feel you
like I always have
everyday
I lost myself in time
thinking of your face
the universe only know
why it took me so long
to let go
I cant imagine at all
if you ever forgive me
like when you were mine
and I fell out of line
I promise your words
I still hold in my arms
when I was the one
walking that mile
with you
Ive hung on every word
when I mention your name
I wont ever know again
to be close to you
I could think about all the loss
but I dont choose that cross
I'm going to choose
to remember your smile
for awhile
I imagine it all
when we sat by a tree
and the friends
were you and me
Thursday, June 21, 2012
you came though
I felt torn and worn
breaking underneath
I wanted to stop the clock
then fast forward time
til your hand was in mine
Its been killing me
for you to see
the weakest me
This distance
wrong upon me
bound me deep
Ive not been free
then you came through
and I found out
you can be true
and in my doubt
I found truth
and why I love you
you took this heart
while it was falling apart
made it beat again
from so far
I feel some hope
I know you know
I never wanted to go
In my darkest day
you found a way
a better place
for us to play
there are no words
to say to you
except to say
you are my way
now the darkness
has lost its black
now my heart
is no longer attacked
now I believe
I will again see your face
and just like your smile
it will be a perfect place
waiting
for you
I'm waiting for you
to stake a stand
to hold me gently
in your hand
I'm waiting
for you
to stop the lies
I'm waiting for you
to see me
to see the truth
I'm waiting
for you
I'm waiting for you
to stop breaking
to stop taking
I'm waiting
for you
to take a stand
I'm waiting for you
to understand
I'm waiting
for you
to be what you say
I'm waiting for you
cause for you I am true
I'm waiting
for you
to stop the bleeding
I'm waiting for you
for healing
I'm waiting
for you
to open your mind
I'm waiting for you
to think about time
I'm waiting
for you
to come clean
I'm waiting for you
to say what you mean
I'm waiting
for you
to rise above
I'm waiting for you
to truly love
I'm waiting to wake up
to music in my head again
So for you I can sing
I'm waiting for this breaking
of these chains and things
I'm waiting for our rescue
I'm waiting to feel safe
so we can get to our truth
I'm waiting
cause I love you
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Still
So I will take a breath
and breathe for awhile
I'm wearing out
from walking the extra miles
See I've been giving you all I got
theres not much left of my heart
there alot of holes inside
and I'm feeling shot
I feel sick now that I know
where I am on your list
somewhere between
a party and the last you kissed
So I'm going to protect myself
cause you wont check yourself
and I hear you words
that you say so well
I've been sitting by your wishing well
and lately it feels like hell
You say you love me
but I cant tell
Every day I'm more tired
wallowing in this mire
walking on this tight wire
still burnt from your fire
I'm still waiting on your faking
hanging by your words
as more of my heart your taking
I fell less like a man
more like a little boy shaking
I still love you
even though your lift me up
to let me down
and you swim
in my tears all around
so i'm going to stop writing for awhile
These painful songs are just not my style
I want my songs to be about your light
and not about the darkness in my soul
not about how for this love I fight
I'm going to lay down here
open up to the fear
let you do with me what you will
anymore I dont know what you feel
maybe a miracle will happen
and you will see
rescue us and rescue me
if this pain is all i will ever feel
I will love you still.
Monday, June 18, 2012
ALIVE
In that beautiful place
Where theres no fear
No pain to taste
Have you searched your heart out
Is your mind cleansed from doubt?
The unknown road can be so long
The flesh is weak
Temptation strong
By your side
I will always stand
I'll be your strength
I'll your man
My promises to you
By my breaking of ties
Its all for you
There are no lies
There is no sacrifice
I am the one
You can lean on
I'll raise your eyes
To the sun
With me your not blind
With you I can see
With me you are alive
With you I can breathe
My words are true
Everything word i've said
We must lead
We must never be led
With me
You will never need
Its my oath
My promise
My creed
I will stand
The test of time
By my side
You will never cry
The bond between us
There is none deeper
Until the end
I will be there
With me your not blind
With you I can see
With me you are alive
With you I can breathe
Sunday, June 17, 2012
i dont know anything anymore
anymore
I dont know where to go
where I once felt love
I feel like you are maybe
someone I dont know
I thought I had your tomorrows
now it looks like you have sorrows
is this the way you love
I dont know anything
anymore
I've been giving everything
writing you in all my words
in every song I sing
in every sunset i've seen you
I dont know anything
anymore
none of this is by accident
how do does it feel
when you walk upon me
you been breaking me
now I see how it feels
to be me
I dont know anything
anymore
you always had my heart
its been yours to play with
from the start
my heart doesnt matter to me
if you dont know what its for
I dont know anything
anymore
I thought we shared a same dream
oceans and gardens
these kinds of things
I thought we were best in anything
In the water or in the rain
I dont know anything anymore
I'm not going to let you see me cry
I'm going to lie down you see
I dont have a heart anymore
I dont know what to believe
I dont know anything
anymore
I dont know what to say
Ive been calling out your name
trying to make you open your mind
still you just can get it right
to you what is my heart for?
I dont know anything
anymore
everywhere I turn
there are things that I find
I have tried so hard to be kind
I have played your fool
when all I have wanted is you
I dont know anything anymore
Did you ever hold my heart
I cant think about it anymore
was my love just a memory
while you played with me
for everyone to see
I dont know anything
anymore
did you feel anything
when you you saw flowers
on your lying drive
did I cross your mind
did you remember the flowers
everyday from me you did find
I dont know anything
anymore.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
The story only you and I
Will ever know
We had our chance
You confused it
In circumstance
I tried hard
So hard
Like this was heaven
Heaven sent
There are so many things
Only you and i know
But now i must go
Though i am filled with sorrow
You wont wont ever know
The way we were
In starlight glow
I give up
I give in
Remember me
In your latest sin
I would say i'm breakable
For you I was takeable
Something makeable
Goodbye my love
My special friend
I fought for this
Until the end
When you are with
Your latest friend
Maybe flowers
They may send
Though i would pick them
In the end
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
for repair
will you
when my heart is empty will you fill me up
will you open the doors in this closed heart
If I push you with my painful stage will you stay
when the memories pull me back in space
Will you find my hand and stay
Will you inspire my broken heart when I cant speak
where I am weak fallen on the floor will you stay
So I turn the page
I'll believe if you stay
In my empty room
built by walls defending
In the space of my empty heart
when I think you will fade away
saying I cant take one more goodbye
as I drift in my painful stage
Will you stay
when I all I have is this empty space
and wounds remind me of my place
and my hearts absence I cant take
when my heart falls through your hands
when anyone less would run away
and I fear her love may run away
Will you turn and run my way
when I think you have turned on me
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
why
To me, my friend
I regret, but now it's too late
I can't show you any more
The things I've learned from you
Cause life just took you away
I'm asking why
I'm asking why
Nobody gives an answer
I'm just asking why
But someday we'll meet again
And I'll ask you
I'll ask you why
Why it has to be like this
I'm asking you why
Please give me an answer
Many years haunt me in the night
Till we accepted to see
How it was and it'll always be
Why it has to be like this
Why we don't realize
Why youre too blind to see the one
Who's always on your side
I'm asking why
I'm asking why
Nobody gives an answer
I'm just asking why
Just tell me why
Why it has to be like this
Why did you disappear
I'm asking you why
I'm asking why
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Hide and Seek
Nothing at all, just a distant hum
There was a being and he lived on his own
He had no one to talk to
and nothing to do
He drew up the plans
learnt to work With his hands
a million years passed by
And his work was done
and his words were these
Hope you find it in everything
everything that you see
Hope you find it in everything
everything that you see
Hope you find it
hope you find it
hope you find me in you
So she had built her elaborate home
With its ups and its downs
its rain and its sun
She decided that her work was done
Time to have fun
and found a game to play
Then as part of the game
she completely forgot
Where she'd hidden herself
she spent The rest of her time
trying to find the parts
Hope you find it in everything
everything that you see
Hope you find it in everything
everything that you see
Hope you find it
hope you find it
hope you find me in you
There was a time when there was nothing at all
Nothing at all, just a distant hum
howard jones
Sorrows
love is a lie of the heart
misled by words
from the start
its an emotional world
and in it your an emotional girl
I never knew
where is the love
and where is the hope
when you had my tomorrows
and felt my sorrows
some love is all
just a little for me
what is love anyway
sometimes I doubt the love
the love for you
if you were ever true
but I dont mind
where is the love
and where is the hope
when you had my tomorrows
and felt my sorrows
WALK
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return
I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?
Where do I begin?
Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
And sat and watched them burn?
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger?
I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind?
Set me free again
You keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a liar
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first decline another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm praying for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm running through the fire
Forever, whatever
I never wanna die
I never wanna leave
I'll never say goodbye
Forever, whatever
I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?
-DAVE GROHL
Saturday, May 12, 2012
mine
to see whats mine
you take a little too much
when I need a true touch
maybe I'm wounded
just a little weak
Ive just been broken
and I cant speak
I love too much
a little too hard
wanting everything
is a place too far
I will give and give
anything less
would be too much
its how I live
I'm not tired of pain
its become my friend
the only thing
to never end
where are you
when I need you most
when this air is thick
black like a rose
where is love
when its more than words
something sure
when underneath it hurts
no one loves anyone anymore
its a mystery behind an open door
a battle in the false war
its not worth fighting for
Friday, May 11, 2012
if your happy, why am I sad
I swam the ocean to restore my soul
something beautiful
Then I fell forward and you fell back
bonfires under the moon
two stars fell way too soon
something beautiful
Its a sad thing in my life
I dont feel right lying on my floor
what is all of this for
now you feel so far
I remember being in your heart
something beautiful
Monday, May 7, 2012
We should live our lives in permanent check yourself mode. Always asking ourselves the tough questions. Calling ourselves out to do the right thing. Challenging ourselves to grow on every level. If everyone did this we will be less numb, less dumb.
We would be better, stronger, and more real.
We would hurt eachother less, and all of us would be safer.
Monday, April 30, 2012
see
and how the time keeps passing away
I'm not sure how to deal with this
and the moments with you that I miss
I remember the day like yesterday
you and me in the ocean like children play
you made me feel like I was 10 again
I made you feel like my best friend
Everyday that goes by I feel farther
and the moments with you I felt warmer
now the sun doesnt shine like it used to
and moon doesnt make me smile like you do
Sometimes i'm overcome with feelings
when I imagine I hear your voice
I cant act like I can let you go
I dont have that choice
I dont like how people throw eachother away
its not my kind of game its not the way I play
I could never do that to you
and take everything away we ever said true
It pains me how you take me
throw me away and discharge me
but I wont change you in the heart of me
all this time you are still all I see
Sunday, April 29, 2012
through
where I feel these burns
all the secrets unknown to me
my soul you moved
all these questions there
my heart so wounded
love once a stranger
now is all around
all these days so far from me
my mind once so lost
now you like water
my soul has been found
you let my heart be wounded
rested my heart with your mercy
held me among all my fears
my heart has moved
you carried me farther
where I was burned to my core
showed me the light
in the light of you
I will never leave you
I can hear you say
where I once was blind
the light is not broken
all the streets
in my empty room
when I was another brick
in another tribulation
where I was alone and down
you found me there
you cut through the sadness
everything from you
stay
for thousands of days
trying to get closer to you
I never did say
it had to be my way
to be closer to you
I know you were scared
I know you feel me there
trying to just get by
Now that you have what you want
and I am pushed away
If you would let me
I would say
stay
now that you have run away
If I could
I would say
stay
I know you will find the words
to rhyme in your life
its seems like forever
and all you have is time
its the biggest a lie
I know youre scared
I know youre there
feeling better as you hide
Now that you have what you want
and I am pushed away
If you would let me
I would say
stay
now that you have run away
If I could
I would say
stay
For one minute more would you stay
you know where I'm going to be
by the tree
stay
theres no words left to stay
stay one more night
by the tree
in the moonlight
stay
Thursday, April 26, 2012
lifted
my heart falls
when a tear drops
from your eyes
when you feel it
I feel your pain with you
there is no one closer
than you and I
the same
when you are lost
when you feel the pain
if you feel low
you are safe so know
I am with you
we have this place
we can hide
a shelter for you here
if you are scared
I am with you
even when I'm gone
and when you feel overplayed
I will lift you up to face the day
wherever you go
I am there
you can realize
your burdens I can bear
if you are in another world
I will be watching over you
I will lift you through
I will protect you
I am next to you
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
you held me
just when I felt like
my life was running out
and I was broken and down
you came around
you were my resurrection
when I needed a rescue
when I needed safety
when I felt empty
you showed me the man
I can be
just when I was broken down
when I felt unworthy
when I felt like I couldnt see
you held me
I never told you
my hope was gone
and the dark captured me
and I didnt care
and then you were there
You didnt know it
I was drowning
and nobody noticed
just when I was out
I was losing
when you found me
you were my resurrection
when I needed a rescue
when I needed safety
when I felt empty
you showed me the man
I can be
just when I was broken down
when I felt unworthy
when I felt like I couldnt see
you held me
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
The Heart of the Matter
But I knew that it would come,
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through,
And how I lost me, and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age?
The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us
You know it doesn't keep me warm
I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down
You know they hurt your pride
You'd better put it all behind you, baby, 'cause life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger
It'll eat you inside
I've been tryin' to get down to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me
-Don Henley
