"I would rather die living, than live dying"

Monday, December 23, 2013

never be the same

It was good for me
It was good for you
Now nothing either of us can say or do
Can change the way you felt that night
Sometimes love just slips out of sight

Just one thing before you go
Just one thing that you've got to know
No one will ever touch me that way
The way that you did that very first day

And I'll Never be the same without you here
I'll live alone
Hide myself behind my tears
No I'll
Never be the same without your love
I'll live alone
Try so hard to rise above

The years go by
There's always someone new
To try and help me forget about you
Time and again it does me no good
Love never feels the way that it should

I loved you then
 I guess I'll love you forever
And even though I know
we could never stay together
I think about how it could've been
If we could just start all over again

I'll Never be the same without you here
I'll live alone
Hide myself behind my tears
 I'llNever be the same without your love
I'll live alone
Try so hard to rise above

It was good for me
It was good for you
Now nothing either of us can say or do
Can change the way you felt that day
Sometimes love just slips away

Just one thing before you go
Just one thing that you've got to know
No one will ever touch me that way
The way that you did that very first day

Christopher Cross

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

one by one

I still think of you
like all these years
its still the same

It must have been
a long year
with lots to do
cause I missed you
its nothing new

so dont say
theres no way
I saw  your eyes
could you stay
we could talk
you could say
you were my friend

its been a whole year
its still the same in the end
all i had
so close
so closely near
now its your voice
I fear to hear

I fear sleeping
when I'll be dreaming
replaying the years
by your side
like butterflies
they wont go away
I dont want to wake up
If all I have left is
missing you




Thursday, October 24, 2013

In everything I'm with you

In the hope
in the dreams
inside the light
in every sound
when the music plays
I'm with you

In the love
I send to you
in the sunlight
around the butterflies
I send to fly
by your side
I am with you

In the world
in the sunset
into the night
inside the stars
that take to flight
I'm there with you

In the tears I've dried
In the ocean wide
beside the butterflies
at your side
I am with you

In the chance
in the wind passing by
inside the bitter night
when you feel the ocean tide
in the butterflies by your side
I am there with you

In the birds that fly
In these tears I  hide
in the life from the tree
in every word
you ever said to me
when you swim
in the ocean blue
I am there with you








Thursday, April 25, 2013

reveal

all this ocean
all this feeling
the hope
I'm not revealing

All these stars
dancing with eachother
like me always by your side
no disguise

If you could see this face
where nothing can hide
all this feeling all the hope
no revealing

always by your side
I choke all the while
As I dance inside my pride
in the ocean where I can hide

where else in the world
when I'm lost on the tide
so much hope
no revealing



Saturday, April 20, 2013

Cant sleep

I found a shelter in you
where I could hide
and I cant lie
I was drowning in my soul
my light was paralyzed

I think back to you
where I used to hide
where you flew into me
like a butterfly

I would be lying
if I said I dont think of you
I would lie again
if I said I never weep
I dont dream of you
when I sleep

I hear you in my guitar
I feel you in my heart
and when my life is cold
on the days I dont understand
when I'm drowning in my soul

I hold you in my song
like I hold your memory
like the writing in the sand
I was never one of many
I want to find a way
to tell you these things

I hear your heart
when I lie here
I'm holding your hand
I want to run your way
to tell you I cant sleep

I would sing for you

In every breath I breathe
its feels like yesterday
I saw you standing again
in the middle of my pain

The butterflies died by me
like words you said
I smell you still
like the flowers in my head

If I could say everything
it would come out wrong
I would close my eyes
and sing for you
and you know this

It doesnt feel so long ago
I dont like to say yesterday
I close my eyes and need your love
its been so long and I dont belong

If I could say everything
it would come out wrong
I would close my eyes
and sing for you
and you know this

if I could sing for you
I would
and you know this

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

this year

I'm afraid of sleeping
then I'll be dreaming
and wake up I fear
you dont remember
me near

Its been a year
since Ive heard your name
still I say it everyday
so its still the same

You should have
been my friend
until the end
its must have been
my fears

You should have taken me
from this hard place
and it feels the same
I just say your name

I forgave you
you said I hate you
wish I could have been
a better man
I wish you could  have
tried to understand

theres so many days
when I think of the place
and the hearts that opened up
at the start of our race
we tried to win

I havent dreamed
of you this year
its the lie I paint
cause I cant see through
these dried tears
that fell
this year


Friday, March 22, 2013

yesterday

For awhile
true love
was in me
and in you

for years we knew
deep inside
there was me
there with you

we could see in our eyes
what we always knew
me and you
you and me


For awhile
we couldnt hide
what we had
we knew
the love was true

after all the time
we were right
we loved eachother
with all

we shared
though we were scared
the days changed
in ways we never knew

The darkness came in
and the trees they cried
and the butterflies
had to hide

now I dont see you
but like for so long
you are with me
like you have been
all along

and yesterday
is all we have











Thursday, January 17, 2013

closed eyes

My friend
my dearest friend
I've been thinking of you
thinking of the end

I'll never forget your face
never forget your name
I'll never forget that place
where I loved you

It will take some time
A whole lot of time
for me to feel right
I still see your face
when I close my eyes