circumstance

You can doubt my love
If you do, I don't mind
I love you even in the end
even if you think I don't

What makes two people be
everything they can't see
I find you doubting these
just love eachother anyway

can love answer questions
words made to misunderstand
what makes these doubts think
expensive spending doubts seize

does any love someone much
to take away worry take fear
baptize everything held dear
this is the essence of love

love is truth in ending fear
all these things can repair
if you deny yourself this truth
then love is led away from you

safe

If the mountains crumble
if the world dissappears
I will by your crying shoulder
take your tears hold your fear

If the world breaks you apart
if the oceans swallow your heart
I will be your solace and your shore
I will carry you when the rains pour

If a dark cloud steals your smiles
If the dark leaves you lying cold
I will warm you beyond the sun

I will be there for you
your crying shoulder
I'll throw the lifeline
even if the mountains stumble

to hold on your heart
you know I'll be there
whenever you want me to
no matter where I go

I'll keep you safe

cure

I found the depths of my tears drying here
I found the the center of my mind within
I don't deny the symptoms or the cure
then why do you

I found the cure within you
Its not deep
yet its still within you
I found the cure within you
Its not deep
yet its still within you

Only the sight of your eyes grips my soul
The distance I would fly refuses any toll
I don't deny the reasons for my cause
Then why do you

I found the cure within you
Its not deep
yet its still within you
I found the cure within you
Its not deep
yet its still within you

conquer

I like to see you in morning
after all its you inside
Like the sun through the trees
In your eyes i'm not blind

You lift my heart and lift me out
You keep me walking If i fall down
Ignore me when I see distant signs
Hold me close I hear you say

You know my way
twists and turns
you know the way
I'm left dry
all my colors
walk for miles
hold me close
I hear her say

You find me in the pouring snow
calling me in my distant fear
if I walk away follow my tears
to make my doubts crystal clear

If you want a part of me
baptized you must be clean
I'll pour myself over things
can you be strong is what I mean

To move my heart switch the place
walk in truth and full of grace
Hold these secrets close
conquer walls hiding my face

You know my way
twists and turns
you know the way
I'm left dry
all my colors
walk for miles
hold me close
I hear her say

directions

I found a love I had lost
never to mind the cost
things had been dark
for far too long

I'm not standing here
i'm the air above the ground
I think I see forever
clarity in all directions
the bitterness is gone

It was mine for too long
I believe in all directions
execution of bitterness
looking at blue skies
resoltion took too long

Changing all the hurt
for me
changing my earth
for me
resolution of dark
for me

I found love I had lost
changing everything
but now its gone
what is love anyway
just fears in my mind

In a way I found my doubt
why did I ever mind
does anyone love anyone
does anyone anyway
everything revealed by time

maybe life is like
what people want it to be
I don't believe in circumstance
the choices made really leads
someone away from you

Can anyone sacrifice
give love so much
they can never be sad
never worry never cry

Changing all the hurt
for me
changing my earth
for me
resolution of dark
for me

deep

Time itself is passing us by
Every mountain we climb
we have to climb down
every reflection in water
we have to wave away
every sun we see rising
ends on that very day

all the seasons of life
we get older every day
all the golden moments
endless and many
yet in the end
there are few

nothing is getting younger
and every day begins and ends
some perpetual endless hunger
hopes that may fade away
so slow down in the end

Yesterday carries us up
lifting us like a bird
all these windows open
in the end they will close
never


Looking back on the time
on the time of my life
tried to find a better place
a better place to play

All the places we would go
looking like it wouldnt end
taking in a look on your face
days I have wanted to save

You cant take back
what never lasts
you can't hold
as the days fold
as we grow old

you can look back
with a favor
the days saved
days together
always

nothing lasts forever
even the sun in the sky
remember those days swimming
when it all felt so deep

sands

The sun hides itself
silent as all lives rest
the winds are in their song
he's on the ocean edge
two children always close
never far

Its hard living a life
When the lights go out
when there was a time he found
a dream never far from his mind

everything is a dream
is it so as it seems
he's never been good
at holding what he needs

All of this could be
all that it seems
all memories go round
times not far from his mind
though he's not good
at this life

He remembers their hands
In them he could understand
what it meant for his life
now its only empty sands

two angels

This feeling never passes
A father closes his eyes

Darkness closes the door
He sees his angels
he see their eyes

overwhelming and crashing
angels go running
away in another life

In the center of his earth
the forces pull
a father cries
two angels he's waiting for

when his eyes are open
he sees them in the wind
closing his eyes
they come walking in

Here it comes
this pain everyday
coming back again
pulling his center
taking his wind

two angels gave him breath
all the things he never said
giving the ends to his means
like the sun

a work in progress

Could you believe in light
believe it could conquer all
Could you believe the same
if I could take your pain
surrender to the game
end it all

I dont need to justify it
to learn from your mistakes
its a foolish plan in place
it only pain in pointless waste
when fear washes you away

Inside you is there shame
do you feel as you say my name
be convinced in other plays
its all a choice you make
yet you can never say

If theres a cure I know
inside a stance I've stayed
reminds me of what I loathe
risk to love to risk again
or abandon one or both

If you need a little heaven
try to open for your share
an intervention hangin around
its a place in me if you dare
what does your heart say now

Light a candle silently in rain
gentle or it kills me where I lay
I wonder if memories ever will win
As I feel your presence distills mine
in you is something to believe in

my resurrection

Is there madness in my reasons
show me something
I've never seen before

I'm caught by your eyes
these consequences
a calm before a storm

I'm wanting direction
I've never had before
I want more

Is this the best
all the things i go by
premonitions for sure

I was happy
till I saw you on water
now its in my air

You surprised me
overpowered me
In my sea

theres a gut reaction
this is for sure
when I see you

It not so serious
not so difficult
easy to cure

I see your eyes
in the ocean
my resurrection
in the storm
I see you standing
on my shore

my harbour
in this tempest
I'm delirious
when your happy
Your smile
all i need.

things

Now she knows it isn't easy
the things she put him through
she had no right he paid his due
It wasnt as if she didnt realize
says he tries so hard to please me
yet she was removed and through
What else did he have to do

He wonders if she's thinking
for the first time
about all the things
she's said and done
Will she see things clearly
changes he hopes will come

She was testing his bravery
Left his heart feeling unsavoury
he needed her most he couldnt find
left him in the dark like he was blind
its as if she never realized
all this time why he's been so kind

He wonders if she's thinking
for the first time
about all the things
she's said and done
Will she see things clearly
changes he hopes will come

premonitions

I'm much too headstrong for my good
too involved and blind to realize
Her uncertainties indefinite me
everytime I was struck down
By her beautiful eyes

I challenged her for a reason
she impossible in her decieving
leaving damage impossible to win
no admitting she knows as I do

I'm naive to her politics on romance
Lost in past justifications and reasons
gut reactions my premonitions of her
always proven true thats for sure

everytime I turned my back
I was vulnerable to attack
everytime I turned to hold her
she stuck the knife in

flame

Under the anvil of the sun
I come undone
and I think of you

In the angry raging sea
I feel this heat
and my body screams

Like a flame
that keeps on burning
I long for rain
In the summertime

I burn and I'm on fire
my body higher
I keep on burning

In the yellow of the sun
I lay in a flame
My body is dust

like a burning light
bold and bright
my body rises

Like a flame
that keeps on burning
I long for rain
In the summertime

If only I could run fast
I could arrive
dancing in rain
by her side

sacrifice

If you want my life
If you still want me here
I would stay for you
Until the days go by

My hopes they dare hide
My sun my moon your eyes
I might burn in this death
only to take your debts

With one smile I walk
In your heartwinds I'll fall
Give myself to be your light
even as your sun darkens mine

In the dark
I'll be light
for your life
In the blur of lines
I'll catch the tears
from your eyes

I'll swim to your only place
Pray for skies soft in this hurt
To be a wish a waterfall a shoulder
To be lyrics to melodies in your words

If you take my sight I'll fall
just to be a harbour in your home
I would crawl to you out there
wander the desert blind on my own

Your eyes may blind my eyes
nothing could take my soul
You may take out my heart
my sacrifice to see you whole

In the dark
I'll be light
for your life
In the blur of lines
I'll catch the tears
from your eyes

alive.............lyrics

So you want to be free
in that beautiful place
Where there's no fear
no more pain to taste
Have you searched your heart now
have you cleansed your mind from doubt

The unknown road can be so long
the flesh is weak
tempations strong
by your side I will always stand
be your strength
be your man

My promise to you
when I broke all my ties
it was all for you
there is no sacrifice
I'm one you can lean on
I'll raise your eyes to the sun

With you I'm not blind
With you I can see
With you I have sight
With you I'm alive

My words are true
everything I have said
we must always lead
we must never be led

With me
you will never need
its my oath
my promise
my creed

I will stand
the test of time
by my side
you will never cry
the bond between us is deeper
until the end
I will be there

With you I'm not blind
With you I can see
With you I have sight
With you I'm alive

a work in progress

You see me standing near the wall
near a corner near a main street
taking in the beginning end scene
seeing it all the morning after

You saw me looking for a sunrise
near a paradise in a blue sky
taking in the air flying at me
what was the profit here anyway

You see me since I got my way
waving to an airway what a pain
taking a breath in a dream of day
I dance with fools still anyway

You see me speaking your name
taking in a laugh on a telephone
learned from a mistake I justify
pointed near my pointless waste

You see my fear just washed away
this simple plan by a simple man
a little part of me never far away
a complex cure can you understand

You saw me walking after midnite
You were walking out of nowhere
For your words i'll let you in
to hear you breathe so stay there

You see me everynight since then
I keep saying this ice is thin
I can show you so I'm to blame
I'm awake in this hunger my sin

You see me this taste so sweet
I know its making out since then
No other way I'm still the same
understand you are saying when

four little hands....wip

I've been waiting
searching every piece of the sands
Trying to forget and trying to find
four little hands

I'm getting over these regrets
I could sleep with angels
Yet the less skin I share
the more I call myself friend

I find myself staring
missing four little hands
I couldn't be happier
other ways giving my time

Its never been a question
Somewhere lies this repair
Staring at four little hands
standing here a shadow of a man

I gave love and affection
I couldnt keep them there
searching the waves for peace
remembering when I could breathe

I've been waiting to find
some peace in something kind
I keep walking these oceans
Smiles like lies all the time

I've been trying to calm
These reasons to what I mean
I cant be there when they fall
seems sometimes I'm lost in between

This shadow of man stands
on the endless ocean of sand
When my mind swims across oceans
to deliver everything I send
to the four little hands

another W.I.P

I walk past her unveiled
while she waits for someone
In my silence there she goes
She takes me over when I'm strong

I imagine her in candle light
A shrine for her as she waits
she breaks a bottle herself
she could take me so I stay

I've gone as far is I can go
she doesn't know what I know
I keep this dream before I die
keeping my soul close to mine

To give up giving in this life
its too much to waste this time
though its much farther to believe
Its harder to be one these days

If she would let me in to see
She could see the morning light
she could find before its late
I could be every little thing

She lifts me up and holds me down
I see her come say its alright
If I had a stranger feeling
would I be everything she sees

Soon later will be running over
when you find out all you are
It can be too late to seize
everything a thing could be

Its hard to find a piece of mind
When your running away from a sign
space where a wall used to be
its history from her memory

I tell her dont sell out
your close to what you will be
It hell out there no one is free
just lay down right here beside me

Someone tell her I'll be waiting
every day in the same usual place
maybe I'll be broken tired or weary
Waiting to rest until she's near me

I know I must walk this line
Until I find the open doors
farther away still out of touch
out on the street and off the floor

letting go

I thought I had every answer
to the questions in my mind
I didnt see you coming
I could'nt stop myself

I started in your deep
While you stood on my shore
swimming my splashing circle
surviving an emotion for more

I found you when I found me
I dissapeared in you
you just found fear in me
I just couldnt bring you over

Life pulled me in your direction
Your unknowns scattered my pieces
everything I knew for certain
I still dont know the reason

Every sunrise that warms me
burns me like memories
every part of me really close
Whenever I fall at your feet

broken promises say step away
but who will break your fall
were you ever there at all
But did I lose my way

Even though we met by accident
you still took me away
I remember your face
in the morning sun

You can't spend your life hiding
you reflection soon you'll see
in my heart you were sighted
you cant fear everything

salt is in my eyes again
I'm losing weight losing time
Stood far too long in your line
no one is allowed there

The days are going to waste
every second you never count
I'm swimming floating drowning
yet I'm still growing up

I thought you were strong enough
to feel the comfort in my eyes
Lives are changed by our minds
why did our dreams collide

Maybe I will see a better day
even though your my weakness
my colors fade and bleed together
I have to let go this way

I'm taking steps to free my mind
learning to finally let go
in this the painful moment
I opened my eyes

a quick one

So paint your lips
so shy and coy
a sharpened glass
simple and poised

The simple word
the harmless glare
a tainted wine
drains you bare

It binds you in
a faintest thread
crushed to your breast
the pressure there

everywhere I've been
the well runs dry
a charming enigma
you know so well

I'm washed out clean
truly baptized
taste these dreams
They numb your mind

Close your eyes
a christ has come
this crippled boy
you made a man

everything will dissolve
live with few regrets
memories I wont forget
everyone begs in time

a work in progress

I want the sun
I want to fly
To break these walls
That hold me inside

I want her light
to taste her kiss
to touch her face
dissapear in this place

I see clouds disappear
from the sun in her face
Our love turns it to rest
our calm in these days

I want to go there
starlight on her face
where wine is a flood
to find this release

I want to reach her
be blown by the wind
build than burn down
held pure from within

I want to take time
to show her a place
dance in the rain
so we can see rest

Pictures

I watch them never grow in my photographs
Memories frozen and their faces never change
My eyes betray me and tears don't feel real
living a life with pictures is all I can feel

I remember reading you stories to slip away quietly
I remember hearing you so delicate crying in the dark
I would run to be near you to chase away every fear
You were more than angels or heaven more than everything

Every day takes you farther away from me
You are beautiful bright and whiter than snow
Sometimes I drink to all that seems we have lost
I often float in the ocean cause its all I know

I look so long at these pictures they don't seem real
In these moments in my heart now I'm breaking apart
I want to run to you swim thru the ocean just to be near
Every rain now its your father lost crying in the dark

I want to find our place see the day find our escape
I walk a black beach under a dark moon wonder where you are
Every single step I count every star miles in my heart
Wherever I am you are here you never leave your always near

She's still seven and he's still five
She's not any different and he's still the same
All my pictures of two frozen angels and my pain
Pictures blurred by tears my endless rain

I once knew my enemy but now he looks like me
I let down my two angels now I'm breaking apart
I did everything yet the questions haunt me
Why I chose this endless darkness over cold

There is nothing in this world that I want more
I want you with me to swim in our ocean of stars
These pictures here they break me and I fall apart
Its time to pick up the pictures made of my heart

Remembering you how you used to be so much of me
Did I slip away in your heart quietly in the dark
You never see pictures of me all I am is a memory
I'm with you in me you are always near never far

grant my last request and let me hold them
all have now is pictures and I can't go there
All I know looking one more time I just can't bear
When all I have is pictures