Still

lately its been hard to smile
So I will take a breath
and breathe for awhile
I'm wearing out
from walking the extra miles

See I've been giving you all I got
theres not much left of my heart
there alot of holes inside
and I'm feeling shot

I feel sick now that I know
where I am on your list
somewhere between
a party and the last you kissed

So I'm going to protect myself
cause you wont check yourself
and I hear you words
that you say so well

I've been sitting by your wishing well
and lately it feels like hell
You say you love me
but I cant tell

Every day I'm more tired
wallowing in this mire
walking on this tight wire
still burnt from your fire

I'm still waiting on your faking
hanging by your words
as more of my heart your taking
I fell less like a man
more like a little boy shaking

I still love you
even though your lift me up
to let me down
and you swim
in my tears all around

so i'm going to stop writing for awhile
These painful songs are just not my style
I want my songs to be about your light
and not about the darkness in my soul
not about how for this love I fight

I'm going to lay down here
open up to the fear
let you do with me what you will
anymore I dont know what you feel

maybe a miracle will happen
and you will see
rescue us and rescue me
if this pain is all i will ever feel
I will love you still.