when the friends were you and me

I've felt like I've been under
this cloud for some time
I've felt torn asunder
all this time
i didnt know


I thought I knew myself
until I thought of your face
its taken me so long
to let it go


you never knew
cause I could feel you
like I always have
everyday


I lost myself in time
thinking of your face
the universe only know
why it took me so long
to let go


I cant imagine at all
if you ever forgive me
like when you were mine
and I fell out of line


I promise your words
I still hold in my arms
when I was the one
walking that mile
with you


Ive hung on every word
when I mention your name
I wont ever know again
to be close to you


I could think about all the loss
but I dont choose that cross
I'm going to choose
to remember your smile
for awhile


I imagine it all
when we sat by a tree
and the friends
were you and me

you came though

I was on my last breath
I felt torn and worn
breaking underneath

I wanted to stop the clock
then fast forward time
til your hand was in mine

Its been killing me
for you to see
the weakest me

This distance
wrong upon me
bound me deep
Ive not been free

then you came through
and I found out
you can be true

and in my doubt
I found truth
and why I love you

you took this heart
while it was falling apart
made it beat again
from so far

I feel some hope
I know you know
I never wanted to go

In my darkest day
you found a way
a better place
for us to play

there are no words
to say to you
except to say
you are my way

now the darkness
has lost its black
now my heart
is no longer attacked

now I believe
I will again see your face
and just like your smile
it will be a perfect place

waiting

I'm waiting
for you
I'm waiting for you
to stake a stand
to hold me gently
in your hand


I'm waiting
for you
to stop the lies
I'm waiting for you
to see me
to see the truth


I'm waiting
for you
I'm waiting for you
to stop breaking
to stop taking


I'm waiting
for you
to take a stand
I'm waiting for you
to understand


I'm waiting
for you
to be what you say
I'm waiting for you
cause for you I am true


I'm waiting
for you
to stop the bleeding
I'm waiting for you
for healing


I'm waiting
for you
to open your mind
I'm waiting for you
to think about time


I'm waiting
for you
to come clean
I'm waiting for you
to say what you mean


I'm waiting
for you
to rise above
I'm waiting for you
to truly love


I'm waiting to wake up
to music in my head again
So for you I can sing
I'm waiting for this breaking
of these chains and things
I'm waiting for our rescue
I'm waiting to feel safe
so we can get to our truth
I'm waiting
cause I love you

Still

lately its been hard to smile
So I will take a breath
and breathe for awhile
I'm wearing out
from walking the extra miles

See I've been giving you all I got
theres not much left of my heart
there alot of holes inside
and I'm feeling shot

I feel sick now that I know
where I am on your list
somewhere between
a party and the last you kissed

So I'm going to protect myself
cause you wont check yourself
and I hear you words
that you say so well

I've been sitting by your wishing well
and lately it feels like hell
You say you love me
but I cant tell

Every day I'm more tired
wallowing in this mire
walking on this tight wire
still burnt from your fire

I'm still waiting on your faking
hanging by your words
as more of my heart your taking
I fell less like a man
more like a little boy shaking

I still love you
even though your lift me up
to let me down
and you swim
in my tears all around

so i'm going to stop writing for awhile
These painful songs are just not my style
I want my songs to be about your light
and not about the darkness in my soul
not about how for this love I fight

I'm going to lay down here
open up to the fear
let you do with me what you will
anymore I dont know what you feel

maybe a miracle will happen
and you will see
rescue us and rescue me
if this pain is all i will ever feel
I will love you still.

ALIVE

So you want to be free
In that beautiful place
Where theres no fear
No pain to taste

Have you searched your heart out
Is your mind cleansed from doubt?

The unknown road can be so long
The flesh is weak
Temptation strong

By your side
I will always stand
I'll be your strength
I'll your man

My promises to you
By my breaking of ties
Its all for you
There are no lies
There is no sacrifice

I am the one
You can lean on
I'll raise your eyes
To the sun

With me your not blind
With you I can see
With me you are alive
With you I can breathe

My words are true
Everything word i've said
We must lead
We must never be led

With me
You will never need
Its my oath
My promise
My creed

I will stand
The test of time
By my side
You will never cry

The bond between us
There is none deeper
Until the end
I will be there

With me your not blind
With you I can see
With me you are alive
With you I can breathe

i dont know anything anymore

I dont know anything
anymore
I dont know where to go
where I once felt love
I feel like you are maybe
someone I dont know

I thought I had your tomorrows
now it looks like you have sorrows
is this the way you love
I dont know anything
anymore

I've been giving everything
writing you in all my words
in every song I sing
in every sunset i've seen you
I dont know anything
anymore

none of this is by accident
how do does it feel
when you walk upon me
you been breaking me
now I see how it feels
to be me
I dont know anything
anymore

you always had my heart
its been yours to play with
from the start
my heart doesnt matter to me
if you dont know what its for
I dont know anything
anymore

I thought we shared a same dream
oceans and gardens
these kinds of things
I thought we were best in anything
In the water or in the rain
I dont know anything anymore

I'm not going to let you see me cry
I'm going to lie down you see
I dont have a heart anymore
I dont know what to believe
I dont know anything
anymore

I dont know what to say
Ive been calling out your name
trying to make you open your mind
still you just can get it right
to you what is my heart for?
I dont know anything
anymore

everywhere I turn
there are things that I find
I have tried so hard to be kind
I have played your fool
when all I have wanted is you
I dont know anything anymore

Did you ever hold my heart
I cant think about it anymore
was my love just a memory
while you played with me
for everyone to see

I dont know anything
anymore

did you feel anything
when you you saw flowers
on your lying drive
did I cross your mind
did you remember the flowers
everyday from me you did find

I dont know anything
anymore.

So this is how it goes
The story only you and I
Will ever know

We had our chance
You confused it
In circumstance

I tried hard
So hard
Like this was heaven
Heaven sent

There are so many things
Only you and i know
But now i must go

Though i am filled with sorrow
You wont wont ever know
The way we were
In starlight glow

I give up
I give in
Remember me
In your latest sin

I would say i'm breakable
For you I was takeable
Something makeable

Goodbye my love
My special friend
I fought for this
Until the end

When you are with
Your latest friend
Maybe flowers
They may send

Though i would pick them
In the end

for repair

He's been waiting all this time

it would be a lie if he said it was fine

he could be happier

if she wouldnt tell him those lines

if she made up her mind

 

he would give himself

If she would cross that line

If she has any questions

they have been answered

when she saw him breakable

 

with every walk upon his heart

he was hoping for repair

he only needed her love and affection

it could keep him there

he loves her more than shallow friends

hes alone not surrounded by angels

while inside his heart inside his head

he is little boy hiding under the bed

 

with every hurt adding more to bear

the more the air lingers in his breath

and his heartbeat quickened

he remembers her wrongs in the end

lying there like a letter never sent

If she has any questions

if he was broken

if he was hoping for repair

he only needed her love and affection

it can keep him there

 

staring at the stars they shared

where she said the words in promises

where the wind blows him  away

like a promise never kept

leaving the shadow of a man

 

he is waiting for the world

to send her the answers

to his questions

if she would stand by his side

he would stay there

will you

When I cant find any love in my place
when my heart is empty will you fill me up

will you calm my wounds from my hearts war
will you open the doors in this closed heart

when life turns will you restore me

Will you climb every wall I ever build
If I push you with my painful stage will you stay
when the memories pull me back in space

 If I cant find love in this painful place
Will you find my hand and stay
Will you inspire my broken heart when I cant speak

where I am weak fallen on the floor will you stay

I never thought I would lose

I've never thought I could win
So I turn the page
I'll believe if you stay


In my empty room
built by walls defending

The love in me I'm scared of sending

 

 Will you  read my face
In the space of my empty heart

space now dissappeared from fear

anymore this life seems a painful disgrace

when I think you will fade away

will you stay

Will you be the only one that understands

when I stand with the look in my eyes
saying I cant take one more goodbye


as I drift in my painful stage
Will you stay
when I all I have is this empty space
and wounds remind me of my place
and my hearts absence I cant take


when my heart falls through your hands
when anyone less would run away

If I look by my side

will you stay

when even my laugh is a painful place
and I fear her love may run away
Will you turn and run my way


when I think you have turned on me

Will you stay

why

It was childish and unfair
To me, my friend
I regret, but now it's too late

I can't show you any more
The things I've learned from you
Cause life just took you away

I'm asking why
I'm asking why
Nobody gives an answer
I'm just asking why
But someday we'll meet again
And I'll ask you
I'll ask you why

Why it has to be like this
I'm asking you why
Please give me an answer

Many years haunt me in the night
Till we accepted to see
How it was and it'll always be

Why it has to be like this
Why we don't realize
Why youre too blind to see the one
Who's always on your side

I'm asking why
I'm asking why
Nobody gives an answer

I'm just asking why
Just tell me why
Why it has to be like this
Why did you disappear
I'm asking you why
I'm asking why