Pictures

I watch them never grow in my photographs
Memories frozen and their faces never change
My eyes betray me and tears don't feel real
living a life with pictures is all I can feel

I remember reading you stories to slip away quietly
I remember hearing you so delicate crying in the dark
I would run to be near you to chase away every fear
You were more than angels or heaven more than everything

Every day takes you farther away from me
You are beautiful bright and whiter than snow
Sometimes I drink to all that seems we have lost
I often float in the ocean cause its all I know

I look so long at these pictures they don't seem real
In these moments in my heart now I'm breaking apart
I want to run to you swim thru the ocean just to be near
Every rain now its your father lost crying in the dark

I want to find our place see the day find our escape
I walk a black beach under a dark moon wonder where you are
Every single step I count every star miles in my heart
Wherever I am you are here you never leave your always near

She's still seven and he's still five
She's not any different and he's still the same
All my pictures of two frozen angels and my pain
Pictures blurred by tears my endless rain

I once knew my enemy but now he looks like me
I let down my two angels now I'm breaking apart
I did everything yet the questions haunt me
Why I chose this endless darkness over cold

There is nothing in this world that I want more
I want you with me to swim in our ocean of stars
These pictures here they break me and I fall apart
Its time to pick up the pictures made of my heart

Remembering you how you used to be so much of me
Did I slip away in your heart quietly in the dark
You never see pictures of me all I am is a memory
I'm with you in me you are always near never far

grant my last request and let me hold them
all have now is pictures and I can't go there
All I know looking one more time I just can't bear
When all I have is pictures